I saw you a few weeks ago... I knew it was you from a mile away.
I've always wondered if I would, and I did.
My heart was racing in my chest yet I was calm on the outside.
You look the same, maybe just a little bit happier than I last
remember....
I still think about you everyday and I still miss you everyday.
As time has gone on, it's gotten easier.
I dream of you constantly.
Sometimes I try to explain why I did what I did. To try to make you
understand. How maybe I should have asked you for YOUR help instead
of someone elses. But you weren't talking to me at the time.
You dropped me on a whim and never looked back... you were always good
at that. I never was.
Sometimes I want to explain it all to you, not that it would change anything.
Sometimes I just feel the need to get it off my chest, to open that large can of worms
and let it all out.
But I guess at this time, this is a secret that will go with my to the grave.
I couldn't even send that one to PostSecret.
I'm not sure it would even matter if you knew the truth.
You could always be so cold, and you always used your silence as a weapon anyway,
why would 2 years ago be any different.
I guess I'll still see you in my dreams, where you talk to me there... where I can
explain in ernest why I did what I did.
How I survived what you missed, by the hair on my chinny chin chin.

Just know I miss you, and think of you, if it matters to you at all.
Know that I want to see you, look into your eyes and tell you
the secret I've locked in my heart and spinal fluid.
Know I dream of you every night and probably will for the rest of
my life.
I loved you for so many years... I know it will take many more
for you to fade, if ever... You always were larger than life!

¶ 7/06/2007 09:52:00 AM